To Me

To Me

One of the worst feeling in the world is when you finally, after so long, you find out [relies] that, that guy never loved you. It feels like for the past few months of my life has been the pointless months of my life. That it was all a waste of time, of love, of me. Looking back at it now, it seems like I wasn't there. I can see myself, but I wasn't there...inside my body. Its like I was hovering over everything, trying to tell myself how stupid I was. It hurts...really it is painful. And then to put pales of salt on my wide wide open wound, I see this girl, your girl, every fucking day. It is so painful, I just want to puke at the sight of you. But of course, I must forget about the fact that I wasted parts of my life on you. I must forget you too, you bastard! I say over and over again to myself "You are nothing to me". Maybe, hopefully after a few more times, you won't be anything to me. I just want to puke. Fuck you and fuck her too.

That Feeling

That Feeling

Have you ever had that feeling?

The worst feeling a human can have.

The questions that runs thoughts your head.

Just back and forth asking questions,

"Am I in love?"

"Is this love?"

"Do I love?"

These are the worst feeling a human can have.

Why can't love, this simple four letter word,

Be so plan and simple?

Why does it have to be hard, painful,

heart-breaking, deadly?

Have you ever had that feeling?

I mean deep in your soul.

And didn't you just wanna rip it out

and never love...wouldn't that be easier

Not to love?

Not to have that feeling?

That would be nice...not to love

But that wouldn't,couldn't happen.

But it sure would be nice.