To Me

To Me

One of the worst feeling in the world is when you finally, after so long, you find out [relies] that, that guy never loved you. It feels like for the past few months of my life has been the pointless months of my life. That it was all a waste of time, of love, of me. Looking back at it now, it seems like I wasn't there. I can see myself, but I wasn't there...inside my body. Its like I was hovering over everything, trying to tell myself how stupid I was. It hurts...really it is painful. And then to put pales of salt on my wide wide open wound, I see this girl, your girl, every fucking day. It is so painful, I just want to puke at the sight of you. But of course, I must forget about the fact that I wasted parts of my life on you. I must forget you too, you bastard! I say over and over again to myself "You are nothing to me". Maybe, hopefully after a few more times, you won't be anything to me. I just want to puke. Fuck you and fuck her too.