6/4/03
Dear self,
Never ever, ever tell someone you like them! Because you did two times…and what happen. I'll tell you what happen they say "I like you as a friend". What the crap!!!!
Self am I ugly, am I just a friend to the whole world, am I never ever going to have a boyfriend, cause no boys are asking me out, am I going to be a old bag lady alone, am I , AM ???
I see the ugliest girl with a boy so why can't I have one! I'm in middle school with no Boyfriend ever…EVER!!! First John and now Luke, It's not like they have ladies all around them or something. I'm probably the only one who said I like them…ASSES!!!
I hear all these older people saying "Wow, you are a really beautiful girl." Well they need to tell all the guys…like in the whole world because I think they all lost the memo about that.
God please oh please help me I fell so lonely. I see people holding hand all happy and I… yes I'm sitting by myself just being a stupid FRIEND. I don't want to be a "friend" any more. Please God I wish it so badly, like in my soul, deep, deep, deep in my soul. Or if not just let this feeling of pain go away. So, so far away. I hate this so much. I wish…well I don't know what I wish for just not this stupid, stupid pain anymore."
Self you know it's not the part where they say "I like you as a friend." it's the part where they know now and even when you stop liking them they still think you do. I hate this all, I hate it.
Well thanks for your ear.
About Me
- Talisha
- Yo Yo Gangstas, I freshly turned 19 years old. I'm extremely chill. I don't get upset or stress easily. I really do like everyone except this one girll...Oops! I'm also a shy person. I know to my friends this is something new. But you look back on how me meet, you were the one who came up to me...right? It takes alot to come up to people and just start talking. But when I get to know you, I'll talk your ear off if you let me. I like to use slang like but no limited to: G, Gangsta, Chillin', Skillet, Fly, Homes, Shizznit, Yo, Homie G, Dogg, What be good?, Where you be Yo?, and much more. I write, stories, poems, and shizznit like that. I love to do the sing and acting thang...it's my life. I would totally be a mortician if I could handel dead bodies well. But I can't so, I would just have to become a Choir Teacher. I'm in love MUSICALS...really ones not High School Musical, Camp Rock, or American Mall. I know ASL and I'm learnig Japanese and it's a cool thing to learn. I also watch Japanese show, like with people not anima, I don't like anima(japanese cartoon).
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